To be honest, I’ve been feeling quite anxious lately. I have ideas in my head that I want to draw, but no matter how I start, I’m never satisfied. I compulsively rework my drawings multiple times, and after several hours, the canvas still remains empty. This leaves me feeling very frustrated and distressed. Coupled with my introverted personality and tendency to procrastinate, I’ve delayed preparing for internships and job opportunities for a long time. I haven’t even started working on my CV or showreel yet.

I know that graduation is approaching, and many of my classmates have already secured internships or are actively participating in various international animation festivals. Meanwhile, what I want to focus on right now is completing my portfolio, with more emphasis on character design and showcasing my personal style. There will be plenty of job opportunities in the future, and I don’t think I need to rush. Perhaps I could even consider becoming a freelancer directly.

Looking at the long term, I don’t necessarily have to stay in the field of animation creation. The gaming and film industries also seem like good options. I enjoy playing games, and if I had to allocate my time, aside from eating and sleeping, I would probably spend it drawing and gaming. Playing games stimulates my creativity, provides me with a lot of inspiration, and enriches my mental world.